CHRIS IS THAAT CUTE REDHEAD IN YOUR PICTURES HUH. IF HAS MADE YOU HAPPY OMG GOOD FOR YOU. SCREW YOUR EEX, HE AINT WORTH IT. BE HAPPY GURL. KEEP THAT HAPPINESS AND SMILE ALL THE TIME. YOU GUYS WILL HAVE AN AMAZING FUTURE. SORRY FOR CAPS IM JUST SO HAPPY IM GOING TO SCREAM.
yes thank you! I am happy too! Beyond happy !
After thinking about it.
He never really made me happy.
But he always made me hate myself.
For getting mad at me for my dislike of pornography and lewd subjects…
For my jealousy concerning girls he used to date that he continued to flirt with and talk to while dating me…
For my self image, telling me all the time that I “look nice in whatever” when I wanted his opinion.
Him writing suicide notes TO ME saying it was all my fault and that its time for goodbye…
For the games he played with my head and I fell for them every time.
For me not listening to people when they said that HE IS BAD STOP IT.
For me feeling sorry for him.
For me defending him.
For me thinking that I was ready to marry him.
For saying I love you too early. That one hurt. Really fucking bad.
For me lingering on him for almost a year.
FOR ME TELLING HIM I WOULD FUCKING WAIT FOR HIM.
This is the closure I needed. To write all this out.
I dont know if hell see it, fuck if I care.
But I have no lingering feelings for him. Slight anger yeah, but nothing more.
If I saw him, I wouldnt smile, but I wouldnt run away or swing.
If he spoke Id speak like I spoke to a stranger or a coworker.
What else am I supposed to do for someone that made me hate my every being?
What I have now is much more than that.
I feel loved.
I am HAPPY.
I love someone for the first time in a long time, and I can see us together in the future. I have never ever ever imagined myself married before. And with Chris, its more than that. I am happy with him in the future.
Why should I linger when the future is waiting.
We get married in nearly a month…
I LOVE YOU CHRIS.
As a fellow Corpsman, Im interested in a person in my department. Do you think its a good idea to date within the workplace...?
Can I tell you a story?
I dated within the department once. It did not end well Well, it ended for good after 2 whole years, but we were on and off throughout the 2 years.
We saw each other and worked with each other consistantly throughout the day. Visiting each others office, going to lunch with each other. Were where known as “Oh its you two!” throughout the clinic.
Im not going to straightout say it was a horrible idea, but we soon saw the bad parts of each other real fast, and things started going downhill from there. The first time we broke up, it wasnt as bad. But we still had to work with each other and pretend to be civil. We got back together not long after that, after a bit of confusion on my part, that ended up being wrong.
Getting back together the first time was the bad idea. After that we broke up and got back together 2 more times. I was told by my mentor, who I worked with, and he kept telling me to stop. Eventually things went to hell. He wrote me suicide notes, told everyone I was the one who caused his emotional and pshycological downfall. It was to the point of him ending up in the hospital a good amount of times.
The weird thing is, my friends and coworkers were telling me not to worry about him because they were cries for my attention. The only problem was, I worked in the same building. I still saw him everyday. It sucked.
Eventually, it got bad enough to where he early outed of the command and got stationed somewhere else a year and a half early.
Based on my experiance with this subject, I dont like the idea. Never will.
Im getting married anyway so, it will never happen again.
Now Im not saying it couldnt work. I know a couple here in dental and they work just fine. The big difference, is keeping it professional. Me and my ex didnt.
DO NOT act like boyfriend girlfriend at work. DO NOT.
Yeah sure go to lunch and go home together but DO NOT flirt, DO NOT kiss, DO NOT hang around each other. Especially is he/she is a higher rank or lower rank than you. It looks bad and is BAD for you.
Try it, if it works, good job! I wish you luck!
YOU’RE WELCOME, TUMBLR
I HAVE THIS IN MY ITUNES
I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS POST MY ENTIRE LIFE
Some of us really need to see a therapist for compulsive lying issues.
Fill your heart with secrets but the only way to read them is if you break your heart.
i will forever reblog this
i need me one of these.
OMG I WANT ONE
i think every couple should get one and fill it with the little things they love about each other. and then if they’re fighting throw it at a wall and read all the little things that come out and hopefully that will remind them to love again.
asdfghjkl reblogging for that ^